Thank you, Valencia.

WE ALL NEED A REASON TO BELIEVE.

Merry Christmas Eve.

This isn't going to be a Christmas-related post, but Merry Christmas Eve anyways!

I'm obsessed with this song and I wish the band didn't break up :(

Becky by Be Your Own Pet

We're BFF and you're such a good friend,
but I knew it couldn't last 'til summer's end.
You signed my yearbook, and that was pretty rad,
but now I'm getting sick of you and it's just too bad.

I heard you talked a lot of shit about me
to your new best friend
Doesn't matter anyway, cuz I've got a brand new friend, okay
Me and her, we'll kick your ass,
we'll wait with knives after class!

But you know, I gotta say
I really loved going to your slumber party
It's too bad you got so lame
You told my secrets and it caused me a lot of pain

I heard you talked a lot of shit about me
to your new best friend
Doesn't matter anyway, cuz I've got a brand new friend, okay
Me and her, we'll kick your ass,
we'll wait with knives after class!

Now give me back all the clothes you borrowed
Don't give me bullshit, bring 'em to school tomorrow
I can't believe I told you all about my secret crush
I wish I could take it back now that you broke my trust

It was great how you made me a friendship bracelet,
but I didn't know you made one for Becky's face lift!
Now you know everyone hates me a whole bunch
just because I made you cry a little bit at lunch.

But I don't feel bad,
'cuz they don't know what we had!
Doesn't matter anyway, cuz I've got a brand new friend, okay
Me and her, we'll kick your ass,
we'll wait with knives after class!

We don't like Becky anymore!
We don't like Becky anymore!
We don't like Becky anymore!
We don't like Becky anymore!

Now I'm going to juvey for teenage homicide
It'll would've been cool if you stayed by my side
And you know that you wouldn't have had to die,
but now every single night I cry

If only what you wrote in my yearbook was true--
then I wouldn't be stuck in fucking cell block 2
But I don't regret what I've done,
'cuz in the end, it was fun!

Doesn't matter anyway, cuz I've got a brand new friend, okay
Me and her, we'll kick your ass,
we'll wait with knives after class!

Alone

I just want to be happy.......

and live a life that's worth it.

Rant

I cannot stand celebrity drug addicts. C'mon people... you guys had or still have it all and you fucking screwed it up because you had nothing better to do than drugs in a stupid nightclub. You got addicted and now I have to watch your struggle on "Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew"? WOW.

PUHLEASE. These people are so rich and I understand that doesn't make one happy, but what about the people who are fucking homeless, have nothing and are addicted to drugs? What happens to them? They don't have a fallback plan. They don't get their story on Vh1. What about all these middle-class alcoholics who drink to drown out their sorrows because they can't afford to send their kids to college? What about them? Do they get to have their chance at rehab? Not usually!!! Why? Because they have to go to work every single day and can't fucking miss a day to better themselves. It's just a vicious cycle.

However, these celebrities parade around and act like their fucking addictions are so heartbreaking. Everyone has problems, everyone feels pain, everyone's been kicked around and everyone has a story. Do all of us choose substances to resolves our issues? NO! I've been threw so much fucking bullshit in my life and instead of relying on alcohol or drugs to make me feel alive, I've chosen to stay strong FOR MYSELF and family. It doesn't make me better than anyone, it makes me responsible. I don't want to be an abuser.

I understand that celebrities are normal people too, but most of them are just so bored and do drugs to have something to do. Fuck, I'm bored all the time... am I trying to score cocaine just to fill that void? NOPE!!!!! Hell, I wish reality shows weren't allowed to be about celebrities. More of them should be about the common folk who make their salaries available. If anyone wants to see a fucking better reality program, check out, "Intervention". That show has substance, but this celebrity bullshit is just laughable.

Grace

I love Jeff Buckley. I'm thankful for his music everyday... wish he was still here.

Cherry flavored Pez

Gordie: Do you think I'm weird?
Chris: Definitely.
Gordie: No man, seriously. Am I weird?
Chris: Yeah, but so what? Everybody's weird.

^ One of the reasons Stand By Me is my favorite movie of all time. I can never watch that movie too many times. Not to mention the fact that River Phoenix is in it and I'm absurdly obsessed with him. I wish he was still alive. He was the anti-celebrity, as he was truly talented and smart. I adore all of his movies and highly recommend Dogfight. Definitely a must see! Ugh, I love that guy!

Oh and Happy Thanksgiving to everyone (if anyone even reads this other than myself!) Anyways, I hope your day was pleasant. Personally, I'd like to give thanks for everything in my life. I understand that I am loved and surrounded by some amazing people!!

I also totally went to see Twilight again last night. I loved it even more the second time, no lie!! Maybe I'll even go see it again :) :) :) BTW, I absolutely adore Robert Pattinson's singing voice. When I first listened to his tracks on the Twilight soundtrack, I could hardly believe it was him. Absolutely beautiful voice. Even if you hate the whole Twilight hype, you should give his songs a listen because he's extremely talented.

Peace, love and River Phoenix.

Tomorrow

I really hope I get to see Twilight again tomorrow night. I'm aware that it leaked on the interwebzzzz, but I love watching movies in the theaters. I better, better be GOING! I am madly in love with Robert Pattinson, along with half of the female population. I enjoy how awkward he is. His interviews are always hilarious and usually they're not meant to be! Haha. RPATTZ IS THE MAN.

I really don't feel like doing my math homework right now either. Blahhhh...

Anyways, all I did today was CLEAN and see someone I haven't seen in ages.

I should go take a shower before it gets too late. Ciao!


PS- ....CAT! :) :) :)